High School Talent Crap

So for some reason, I decided to do Mr. Cosby. Essentially, this is like a talent show for guys at my high school.

I originally didn't make the cut because I f'ed up the application by not being specific enough, but when one of the people quit, I got in. So that's pretty cool.

It feels really out of place doing this. Most of the other kids doing this are more "popular" or "cool" or whatever weird word best describes it. Not that I'm "unpopular" or "uncool" (if you can't already tell, I hate using these words), but I'm just not really in that sort of group, and I'm getting nervous that that's going to show while I play my song.

Oh right, my talent is playing guitar. Probably should've said that in the beginning. I wrote a song and I'll be playing it on stage.

Not that I'm nervous of performing in front of crowds or anything, but the fact that I know these people makes it all the more surreal. And at this point my biggest fear is that I'll go out and that nobody will really "hear" my song; that I'll play my song the best I can and that nobody will like it, not because of different musical opinions, but because my composition was bad. Either that or that I'll just f**k up and vomit on the audience or something. One or the other.

The main reason I'm making my self do this is so that I'll be able to play for my class, so that they'll be able to hear me. And I know that if I didn't do this, I'd really regret it, maybe even forever (by the way, remember for a second that I'm a teenager, forever is different to me then it is to a 25+ year old). That's why when I didn't originally make Mr. Cosby, I got so upset. I felt like I missed out on something so important. And on top of that, it was my fault for screwing up on the application.

Either way though, I'm doing this. It better not suck.